^_^ reminiscing.

here i am very early in the morning in front of the computer, thinking. it has already been a year ago, the beginning of a cascade of events. today is a special day. i will celebrate in silence. i was thinking of the right words to say, but these thoughts and feelings could not be translated into words. it would be injustice to describe it. i'll leave it at that.

dry and weary. cold and dreary. trudging along an empty road, listening to the rustling grass. hearing the voices in my head. i don't get what they're saying, neither do i care. numb. as if i care. as if i care. wasting away precious they say moments of my life. youth wasted in waiting. moving along this so called life. waiting for the clock to tic and toc until it's way past midnight. waiting to get tired and sleepy. zombie.


i'm sitting on a golden egg. but what is a golden egg in a world made of gold? what is an idea in a world of ideas?  hatch it.


ramblings of a mad man. makes me roar rawr! grumpy grouch. messy hair, i don't care.